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Although i claim to dabble in photography, ive never posted anything here till now.

This one is the first, of many more i think :)

In the frame: My ಅಮ್ಮ (mother) and the little darling's name is ಬೆಳಕು (belaku- meaning 'light')

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In my head

He is
an open book;
but the pages,
are blank.

and I;
I always thought,
that I,
could read them all.

Neurotic Poet: "Sylvia Plath"

"Soliloquy of the Solipsist"


I?
I walk alone;
The midnight street
Spins itself from under my feet;
When my eyes shut
These dreaming houses all snuff out;
Through a whim of mine
Over gables the moon's celestial onion
Hangs high.
I
Make houses shrink
And trees diminish
By going far; my look's leash
Dangles the puppet-people
Who, unaware how they dwindle,
Laugh, kiss, get drunk,
Nor guess that if I choose to blink
They die.
I
When in good humor,
Give grass its green
Blazon sky blue, and endow the sun
With gold;
Yet, in my wintriest moods, I hold
Absolute power
To boycott any color and forbid any flower
To be.
I
Know you appear
Vivid at my side,
Denying you sprang out of my head,
Claiming you feel
Love fiery enough to prove flesh real,
Though it's quite clear
All your beauty, all your wit, is a gift, my dear,
From me.

rocky Road.

I wrote
today, the exam
that would
decide after this one,
if I
could write any other
at all.
It all,
started with one
broken parker pen, one
unexpected message, one
incomplete question paper, and
I lost my phone.
Daddy still,
bought me the ice-cream, I
had asked for.
Only that now,
they call my favorite chocolate
choco chip flavour,
Rocky Road.

Irony.
Is rich and sweet,
till the last scoop.

June

June, Swept away
in a deluge
of emotions. I
will never, ever
find again,
The love i
had for my
June.
Ever again.


I will miss you.

June

"How did it get late so soon?
Its night before afternoon.
December is here before its June.
My goodness how the time has flewn.
How did it get so late so soon?

-Dr. Seuss

June

Poor little june bug floatin' in the pond
Poor little june bug not too fond
Of the water that he's floatin' on
For he's caught in a hydrogen bond.

-Adam Thoms

June

"it is june
i am tired
of being brave"

-Anne Sexton

Yes. i did it again and AGAIN. O_O

Tags on blogger. and im a sitting duck.

Wouldnt have done this if i hadnt come across the "will never enjoy another drink in your life if you dont do this tag" here. Is there an alcoholic in the house? So now you know.

So here goes. again.

Ten is:

1. the amount i am happy to have in my pocket.
   That means 1 cup of coffee+ 1 catridge sheet
   or the confidence to say "2 milds kodi"
   
2. the total marks for one Building Construction sheet.
   im averaging at about -4.75 right now.
   
3. the time at night when i think
   "so if i sleep for 2 hours now and get up at 12 then i still have 8 hours left, AWEsome! i can definitely finish my entire's semester's submissions in that time"
   
4. the number of subjects i attempted this semester.
   "In your face past-apprehensive-me"
   
5. the number of talons at the ends of the digits typing this out.
   manicure? hoo dhat?
   
6. the number of numbers in a very special phone number ;)
   
7. NOT the number of mugs of beer i can consume.
   the exact number will be a mystery to all.
   except for those willing to pay to find out.
   
8. the number of days i want to sleep for after tomorrow.
   continuously.
   
9. the number of days to go for my BIG 22 , three days back.
   yes, i am a mathematical genius.
   
10. the number of minutes for which i WISH vaish was back home :(
    and maybe stay for eternity after that?
    im so selfless and non-greedy.
    
    
    

NOW, the devil speaks through me to say
"Thou shalt never enjoy a drink
So dare you skip this tag !!!

Yes. i did it again.

Yes, this is my first "blog style" post. 
No, im not jobless and looking for a way to "kill" time 
Logically speaking, i shouldn't even be online let alone blog. 
My whole life is hanging on a thread. 
Worse, the thread is imaginary, with about 7 wooly grey spiders dangling from it. 
Even if a teeny tiny strand gives way, im doomed. 
And yet the best thing i can think of doing right now is writing about

"30 Nosey things"


PS1: References to things you dont understand are meant to be googled. Be religious.  Google is God (similar clickable links ahead)
PS2: When you find that number for the mental asylum please forward to any of my loved ones. They'll be grateful.



Here goes,
1. When you looked at yourself in the mirror today, what was the first thing you thought?
“You disgusting slob! you slept for 6 hours again! i really need a bath."

2. How much cash do you have in your wallet right now? Rs. 17.
One A1 size print out= Rs. 50. Condition when i DO become bankrupt= priceless.

3. What’s a word that rhymes with DOOR?
FOUR: the no. of sheets i hope to draft in the next 8 hours *read as impossible.

4. Who is the 4th person on your missed call list on your cell phone?
Shamanth random rants, dreamy plans & wake up calls.

5. What is your favorite ring tone on your phone?
Oh i have the latest pre-civilization model.
it comes with power button and bird calls.
"Meg's phone says: stupid bitch loves the printer more than richard meier!
dates with printer=no money for food/recharges/petrol/clothes"

6. What are you wearing right now?
Bright Orange full patiala with white polka dots and an over sized white Tshirt (with yellow paint spoltches from yester years beautiful days) which belongs to an estranged friend (that i miss so so much right now.)
I AM NOT JOKING.
i swear on my submissions.

7. Do you label yourself?
NO, i have too many sheets to label right now.
But wait ive to draft them first!
Oh well. How about "Poor, mal-nourished, sleep deprived bum" ?

8. Name the brand of the shoes you’re currently own?
NONE, Taffy made choo-sticks of my last pair.
Im now left with two choices.
Black-standard-60Rs-rubber soles OR White-now-muck-coloured-strappy-flats.
Pampered for choice or what *smug*

9.Bright or Dark Room?
Dark for Glass-tracing, bright for final drafting. The question IS about drafting right? right?!

10. What do you think about the person who took this survey before you?
 Bohe-babe Super cool writing. *Envy her and the boy*

11. What does your watch look like?
Like one made from a unicorn's horn and the goblins' gold. *Imaginary*

12. What were you doing at midnight last night?
Taking guilt trips. because i was considering an hour of sleep.
Yeah, i had been working for 19 straight hours at that time, Your point is?

13. What did your last text message you received on your cell say?
"Getting used to stress is overcoming a major inhibition"
F#(k you! You're not in architecture.
Bloody free advice givers.

14. What’s a word that you say a lot?
Fuck?

15. Who told you he/she loved you last?
 I cant remember. Days since contact with civilization=11.
(Update: vaish just did :D love u too!)

16. Last furry thing you touched?
Taffy Boi  !!! like duh.

17. Favourite age you have been so far?
21 21 21 21 21 21 21. i DONT LIKE 22. : :

18. What was the last thing you said to someone?
"no you too :( "

19.The last song you listened to?
"Angel, Sarah Mclachlan" missed someone terribly that instant.

20. Where did you live in 1987?
VASCO, GOA!!!i was BORN there.
*ha ha eat your hearts out suckers*
I hate that my parents moved away after that. 

21. Are you jealous of anyone?
EVERYBODY who gets to sleep tonight! %&!(&$@*&)!#

22. Is anyone jealous of you?
maybe the rotting sponge that got swept on to the beach,
Actually wait.
Even THAT has more hopes for survival than i do.

23. Name three things that you have on you at all times?
Green monkeys, kohl and attitude.

24. What’s your favourite town/city?
BAN-Galore.

25. When was the last time you wrote a letter to someone on paper and mailed it?
4 years back. a pretty postcard and got a huge thank you in return.

26. Can you change the oil on a car?
Ive read the manual.

27. Your first love/big crush: what is the last thing you heard about him/her?
That he was sorry.

28. Does anything hurt on your body right now?
EVERYTHING! Except my heart.I should be glad i guess right?

29.What is your current desktop picture?
Black, solid, blank.

30. Have you been burnt by love?
Burnt.? No. Just slightly roasted till golden brown in desi ghee. 

my "THE END"