for now, for me

for now, just realisation; 
acceptance follows behind.
tomorrow
trapped in silent pages
twisted thoughts today unwind.
conversation
round the corner lingers, 
solution plays hard to find. 
for now, just realisation; 
acceptance follows behind.

one thing i did today to stay sane

2009, 18th November. Wednesday 18:24 hrs

"are you here yet are you here yet are you here yet are you here yet are you here yet are you here yet are you here yet are you here yet are you here yet are you here yet are you here yet are you here yet are you here yet are you here yet are you here yet are you here yet are you here yet are you here yet are you here yet are you here yet are you here yet are you here yet are you here yet are you here yet are you here yet are you here yet are you here yet are you here yet are you here yet are you here yet are you here yet are you here yet are you here yet are you here yet are you here yet are you here yet are you here yet are you here yet are you here yet are you here yet are you here yet are you here yet are you here yet are you here yet are you here yet are you here yet are you here yet are you here yet are you here yet are you here yet are you here yet are you here yet are you here yet are you here yet yet are you here yet are you here yet are you here yet are you here yet"

2009, 18th November. Wednesday 23:53 hrs


Yes. yes. yes.
she's back.
my best friend is home.
i can breathe again.

"now that you're back | You're coming home |
| Put on my coat | I'm out the door" 

familiar

they still make me smile,
love, even though i dont;
you dont. maybe
its because i've,
forgotten all the
hurt. or maybe
its because i've,
forgiven what was
base. or maybe
its because i'm.
just downright stupid.


but you know better
than most 
don't you,
that none of those three
are true.
that it is because,
during all the hurt,
you just stopped 
being you.

But i wont stop laughing.

serendipitous images: continuing the series and other stories.

imperative

"Who is more 
foolish, the child
afraid of the dark 
or the man 
afraid of the light?"






image courtesy gunnar freyr. click click

tonight i know i cannot sleep; words, just words, offer no release.

I,

live life break mind close eyes laugh lies

sew hope lay claim heal self stay out

I,

dance true play nice love scorn rule high

care less want all buy time sow doubt

I,

dye dream slip not feel right know more

take turn write mess blot own choke shout

I,

leave sense force thought fail faith find shore

add note make chance tie down lose count

trick question

"I have the choice of being constantly active 

and happy or 

introspectively passive 

and sad. Or 

I can go mad by ricocheting in between.

-Sylvia Plath"