Wednesday, July 15, 2009

dissociative.


(c) image copyright to Meghana Naidu, 2009


thoughts Escape;
twist away
from my mind.
archived threads
(my microfilm life,)
weave around my fingers.

light unfurls;
as If
from a hidden core.
the rays burst
force to reveal
(its etched memories.)

Amidst this
i stand,
a sombre witness
to vivid apparitions;
(autoscopic reality)
which i never created.

They mock.
Refusing to stay
I walk
on (altered) Consciousness.
and take flight,
leaving It behind.



...I walk on consciousness and take flight leaving consciousness behind...


...if I were He...

she asked him,
"why can we not be together
why is it we have to part
why did you leave with a stranger
when i am revealing my heart?"

because i love the unknown
i love the unknown
he says he loves the unknown
because i love the unknown
i love the unknown
he says he loves the unknown

they asked him,
"hey, where's this bus going?"
and he said, "well, i'm really not sure."
"well then, how will you know where to get off?"
and he said, "the place with the most allure."

because i love the unknown
i love the unknown
he says he loves the unknown
'cause i love the unknown
'cause i love the unknown
he said he loves the unknown

and then his father got him a job
and it paid well
but every day it felt the same
well, his father was really heartbroken
when he quit and changed his last name

the doctor asked him what he was afraid of
just what was he running from?
he said, "it's not a fear of success, nor of closeness
but of going through life feeling numb."

that's why i love the unknown 
i love the unknown
he said he loves the unknown

because i love the unknown
i love the unknown
he says he loves the unknown

because i love the unknown
i love the unknown
he says he loves the unknown

Performed by: Clem Snide | Written by: Eef Barzelay |  Movie: Rocket Science

Monday, July 13, 2009

Milly the moth.
















"I'm Milly the Moth,
And I fly at night.
To call me a butterfly,
Would not be right.
If you open the window,
And put on the light,
I might come and see you,
One fine summer's night."

-Porter G




Photograph (c) Meghana Naidu
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Sunday, July 12, 2009

You said


i Could.

paint my fingers pink
right now;
and, You
wouldnt know.

Binary love





"draw near, you'll Know
all's real; although,
virtually So."








Thursday, July 09, 2009

Neurotic Poet: "Emily Dickinson"





"Because I could not stop for death, 
He kindly stopped for me; 
The carriage held but just ourselves, 
and immortality."

-Emily Dickinson



Monday, July 06, 2009

For me.



Like the previous "for me" this too was writtten for me and me alone.



"You fill me with joy,
And I smile at you.

You share your pain,
And I frown for you.

You touch my heart,
It melts for you in my eyes.

You open your arms wide,
I embrace you.

You present me life,
I give back to you what is rightfully yours."  







 Shamanth

Sunday, July 05, 2009

Neurotic poet: "Edgar Allan Poe"




"Dream within a dream"

Take this kiss upon the brow!
And, in parting from you now,
Thus much let me avow-
You are not wrong, who deem
That my days have been a dream;
Yet if hope has flown away
In a night, or in a day,
In a vision, or in none,
Is it therefore the less gone?
All that we see or seem
Is but a dream within a dream.

I stand amid the roar
Of a surf-tormented shore,
And I hold within my hand
Grains of the golden sand-
How few! yet how they creep
Through my fingers to the deep,
While I weep- while I weep!
O God! can I not grasp
Them with a tighter clasp?
O God! can I not save
One from the pitiless wave?
Is all that we see or seem
But a dream within a dream?


-Edgar Allan Poe

Saturday, July 04, 2009

because I don't know...





I just opened
a box

of sugar-coated candy;
and it
turned out to be
Tangerine;
the flavour
of paradise. Happy

Birthday.



Now.

I
don’t know now,
what mysteries your eyes tell;
not because
I
could never look into them,
without the fear
of it all slipping away;
but because you ,
never let me.


I
don’t remember
the feel of your hands in mine;
and it was not
I
who made me forget,
what it was like
to hold them with ease;
but the memory I had,
eroded itself.

I
don’t smile
at our song anymore;
even though
I
feel every note burst,
as true as the voice
that said it loved;
but inside me,
the voice grew silent.

I
don’t recognize
what lucidity your words hold;
not because
I
am lost within their maze,
of contradictions
and fear.
But because from these,
love, never broke free.

Wednesday, July 01, 2009

...


I am what you seek

when you stand, at that evening window;
On the empty, winding highway;
In the summer breeze and the winter days
and pressed between the drying flowers.

When silent dusk turns to black,
I am what you search for,
on the bench in a lonely park;
In fading ink and the flickering flame
and under raindrops on a tired day.

When you smile at the twined hands;
On the bench in a lonely park;
I am what you want,
in lilting song and whispered words;
and under dew laden boughs of the ancient tree.

I am what dances in dying light;
and what sleeps under heavy eyes.
I am what dwells in lingering gazes;
and what remains of fleeting life.

I am
realisation, forgiveness,
companionship and hurt;
I am nostalgia, acceptance
anticipation and fear;
I am inspiration, yearning,
love, despair and hope;

I am truth and time;
I am the journey in your mind.
I am the one without identity;
and everything, that you want me to be.


Of sleeping roads...


"So gaya yeh jahan ...
so gaya aasma.
So gayi ...
hai saari manzile
O saari manzile ...
So gaya hai rasta.
So gaya yeh jahan ...
so gaya aasma."

One of the few hindi songs i love, and this one for its lyrics, nothing else;
( i think execution could have definitely been better, instead of bubble-gum-pop and the jingles in the background, more poignant voices,bass, and stronger tones.
such sheer beauty in the words
completely and hideously underplayed by the song)


"raat aayi tho woh jinke ghar the
woh ghar ko gaye
so gaye ...
raat aayi tho hum jaise awaare
phir nikle raahon mein
aaur kho gaye...
...
So gaya hai rasta."